Mood:  surprised
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so on thursday was my first day back to school from the weekend because i was sick ..so when i got back and i was at my locker my friend meghan said u kno brad kept asking where u were and if you were here everyday and i was like cool 8-) ( more effective on msn lol )  and i didnt reall think anyting of it cuz he's like one of my good friends . so then on friday we were all hanging out and it was the last day before christmas break and so brad gave me his cell phone number and said text or call me during the break and i was like ok ...so before class started he said tonight im gonna go on msn and i'll talk to you and im like ok finally your gonna go lmao and i was jk .... so anyways that night he did go on msn and he was like hey and so i said and then he asked me if i had a bf and i said no so then he said i dont have a gf and i was just like um cool ^o) ( again more effective on msn) adn i guess i did really know what was gonna happen from there so i tried to change the subject but when i was typing something he wrote " what im trying to say is i like you " and i said ummm ummm i really dont know what to say to that . so a little later in the conversation he brought it up again and again and again until the point that he was scaring me so then he asked me out and i was like umm i have to think about so the whole time he was asking me if it was a yes or a no and i still havent answerd him . im gonna say no just because he's my friend and i dont want to date one of my friends just cuz if we break up it will ruin our friendship but that is only one of the reasons to because i like one of his friends .... i guess it seems really shallow but i really dont like brad the way he likes me and i really dont want to ruin our friendship over a crush or something like that. anyways so tonight when he comes on msn im gonna have to tell him the truth or just say  something to tell him that im not interested in him in that kind of way .

social circle
do you ever notice the groups people hang out in ?. well i do where ever i go i see the thing i call the " social circle" ... the social cirlce is if youre wondering is a group of people who stand around while they think they are popular and all they they do is talk and talk about there hair and how there trip was ..or how the concert or something lie that was and takeing pics of there selves so they can send them to there ugly ass boyfriends .btw as you can tell by reading my blog enteries that i have problems with poepl ( preps mainly and jocks ) .

im not your friend and i dont care
Mood:  cool
today im cool in not okay i guess i still fell mad about every thing . now i find out this guy who is my friend wants to be like one of those friends where you can tell anything to ..but what they dont get is that i dont want to tell them anything i rather just write it on my blog and if my friend wants to talk to me about his problems i just want him to know that i dont care i know it sounds mean but im just not that nice of a person .

stupid f******* prep
today we went to a hght school and we had these groups and i was in a group of like 12 people and 8 of us were from my school so we hadto go around the group say our names and school and what we like to do for fun so i saidmy name and school and what i like to do for dun so what i said i like to do for fun is "stuff" and the group leader was like what kinda of stuff so i just i dont know and so f******* prep said she likes to bad stuff with guys ..meaning i sleep around with guys and i swaer to god i alomost punched her out ..and i would have if the My Songstupid principal came when i was yelling at her